a season of consecration

“A life of consecration always comes before a life of love, and a satisfying experience always comes after an act of consecration.” – Watchman Nee

Currently I have made the decision to step into a season of consecration, it was a hard decision mostly because it was waging war against my flesh but I knew the Lord was calling me to come out and be set a part from my current lifestyle, situation, circumstance, etc. It took almost a month to finally make the  decision but I am seeing how it was the best decision I could have made for myself, and honestly it was the Lord that really made that decision. I just obeyed. I was sharing with my roommates and some friends that through this consecration I am ACTIVELY pursuing singleness. I know that sounds strange, and completely the opposite of what is “normal” because here I am at age 27 still single and now I have chosen to pursue the single lifestyle for an entire year. Basically the Lord and I decided this was the best thing for me because, well, first of all – He has a lot for me still, and He’s not ready to give me up yet. Second of all, I have been marriage minded since I can remember, and it’s time I lay that idol down and really let the Lord take hold of that part of my life.

Awhile ago I felt the Lord speaking to me about marriage and I believe it was He that spoke, but I took hold of that quickly and had such a strong hold on it, I don’t know if I was still really listening to what the Lord was doing – having said all that, it just made my life way more complicated the past two years. So now all that changed, I am pursuing holiness and sanctification above all else. I want to be all that I am, and be fully known by the Lord. I hope that through this journey I will learn what it means to be fully known and to fully know God.

There have been some extremely painful moments, and also some sweet moments, and granted its only been two weeks, but I look at it and think, wow two weeks. Some moments it feels like yesterday I made the decision and some moments I feel like I’ve been on this path FOREVER. Two weeks, fifty to go. I’m mostly excited to see what week 23 looks like, and week 40. I am expecting much revelation from the Lord, and also the opportunity to practice my own spiritual gifts that the Lord has given me.

I don’t really know if any of this is making any sense because I’m just rambling. But I am excited to bring you along with me on this journey. I actually have been documenting it on my own personal blog here for those of you interested. I blog about my journey daily. I hope to keep doing it throughout the whole year.

Know that you are loved by a jealous God, and He will have His way.