Monthly Archive for January, 2010

Sanctuary

The definition of “sanctuary” from dictionary.com:
1. a sacred or holy place.
2. Judaism.
a. the Biblical tabernacle or the Temple in Jerusalem.
b. the holy of holies of these places of worship.
3. an especially holy place in a temple or church.
4. the part of a church around the altar; the chancel.
5. a church or other sacred place where fugitives were formerly entitled to immunity from arrest.
6. immunity afforded by refuge in such a place.
7. any place of refuge; asylum.
8. a tract of land where birds and wildlife, esp. those hunted for sport, can breed and take refuge in safety from hunters.

I’ve always thought that a person’s home should be their sanctuary, their safe haven from the craziness of the world. Beginning my maternity leave just before giving birth to my 2nd child 1 month ago, I was really looking forward to staying home each day with my 2 kids; my husband works from home so we see him frequently as well. Maybe it’s because I’m an optimist, but I really thought we’d have a great time & that my son would adjust well to his new sister without *any* problems or controversy. He was doing great accepting everything we told him about what life would be like & was looking forward to having a new sibling. For the most part things have been going well & he is gentle with her & gives her kisses. However, today I thought I was going to lose it.
Every chance he got, my 2 yr old would disobey, waking the baby up twice in the process. I’m sure he was just looking for attention, & yes, he sure got it! He spent quite a lot of time in the corner, unfortunately. Anyhow, today my safe haven, my sanctuary, was anything but. It was more stress & chaos than a tough day at work! Stay-at-home moms definitely work hard! The experience made me realize 2 things.
First, it made me ponder, & know just a little bit better, how God feels when we, His children, disobey His word. I don’t mean ignorance, but blatant disobedience. Have you ever knowingly disobeyed the Lord? Ever felt like you were “standing in the corner” or on a “time-out” for a while in life? God doles out the discipline with more love in His heart & a whole lot less anger (Ps. 86:15) than we earthly parents! But each day as a mom I look at my 2 kids & get to know the parent part of God’s heart that much better. It makes me want to be a better daughter.
Second, & my main point, is that He reminded me that the temple veil was torn when Jesus was obedient & completed His mission on the Cross. The holy of holies, the ultimate place of worship, was opened up to us all. 1 Cor. 6:19 tells us that our bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit. Christ is dwelling within our hearts & with us now & always, to the end of this age & for eternity. In the midst of my little home’s stress & chaos, I was reminded that Jesus is with me through it all. He is right there with me in my boat that is being tossed to & fro in the storm & He is calm. When I remember that He is with me, not only can I tell the storm to calm, but like Peter, even I can walk on the water with Him, by His power.
My sanctuary, my safe haven, was within the whole time.

Preparing the way…

I am currently nearing the end of my pregnancy with my second child and despite the fact that I’m generally exhausted after taking care of the absolute basics of family life, I have this overwhelming drive to nest and prepare everything for the baby that is coming soon.
This morning, I’ve been thinking about how this instinct has the power to keep me going when I’d normally (and probably should) be resting. The fun and frustrating aspect of this whole nesting deal is that it is quite often an urgency that I alone feel. When I come up against an obstacle to completing a specific task, it’s easy for others to say, “Relax, we’ve got time to get that taken care of”. And everything inside of me screams, “No! We need to do it now because time is short!”
Having had one baby already, I know that once that little one arrives you’re pretty much involved in their care 24/7 and whatever stage you were at in preparation is what you generally live with.
As I ponder this, I am reminded of the urgency that I am meant to carry of the arrival/return of Jesus Christ. I so often give in to the “Relax, there’s plenty of time” mentality when in fact I need to have the same -if not greater- drive to be fully prepared when He arrives.
Just as I am all of a sudden aware of every bit of dust or clutter in the house, I should be acutely aware of the state of my heart and what “little foxes” are distracting me from full communion and partnership with Jesus.
Whatever measure of oil – reality and intimacy in relationship with God(Matt. 25) – I have when things get dark before His appearing is what I have to carry me through to seeing His face.

So, my prayer in this season is this: “God, give me wisdom to know what is absolutely necessary in preparing for this baby so I don’t over do it, AND give me more hunger and urgency to prepare a place for You in my heart, my home, my city, and my nation. Help me to stick to the task of preparing the way for You even though others might say it’s a waste of time, energy, etc.
And May You find Faith, Love and a dwelling place here in my heart upon your return.” Amen.