I never expected to be one to NOT pray, to not spend time with Jesus on a regular basis, to “fall off the wagon” so to speak. . . and it’s happened! But His grace IS SO sufficient for me, in my weaknesses. And I KNOW that no matter what, He is for me, He delights in me, and His affection is FOR me. He is NOT angry with me because I failed to spend time with Him in awhile.
The balance to keep the prayerful life while your “life” is in an uproar, I can attest to that in recent events.
I lost my job
I moved out of my house (an amazing ministry house with a bunch of women)
I moved into my parents home (something I dreaded)
I’m completely broke (unemployment is not happening due to the circumstances of loosing my job)
I am living in what seems like the middle of nowhere
I do not have community at my finger tips
I am utterly alone
One would think that in all that I would have CLUNG to Jesus with all that I am, but I did the exact opposite. I RAN in the other direction and tried to satisfy my brokenness through other means. The purpose of this blog is to talk about living the lifestyle of prayer in a busy world and I feel like I have not been living up to that at all. I feel completely broken, and weak, my world is in an uproar. Everything I thought is not as it is, and I have no idea of what’s going to happen next. I need a breakthrough.
I’m in a similar place Meg…maybe coming out the other side a little. Let me know if I can do anything for you. I know lots of people love you and you are not alone, also as you know (but we don’t always feel the same amount), that Jeus loves you and the Holy Spirit is always with you. I am living alone for the first time so I am telling myself the same thing quite often…